New Beginnings
There’s something about new beginnings. The smell of change in the air, the unfamiliar noises, unfamiliar streets. Yesterday I got on a plane and moved into my first apartment in the East Village of Manhattan. When the taxi drove through the city, I saw a scene of juxtaposition. There was a large cemetery with the city skyline behind it. We all move to the city searching for something whether it be love, fame or simply a life of our own. That cemetery is a reminder that we all come here to live but not everyone truly does. Some choose money over happiness and some simply don’t believe their dreams are possible. Well, I’m here to remind you that they are.
The taxi pulled up outside my building. As I climbed the stairs to see my apartment for the first time I felt a sense of peace. Opening the door and seeing it felt like a kid opening the present they so desperately wanted on Christmas. It’s absolutely gorgeous, high ceilings, natural light, and best of all a private balcony. As I settled in, the excitement grew but so did the doubt.
You see, I moved to New York City in search of myself, in search of happiness, and in search of my purpose. With this goal in mind, there is also a lot of doubt. I’m scared of losing this vision and slipping into the mundane 9 to 5 life that I don’t really want. As night began to fall and I realized that for the first time I was going to be alone that night, fear gripped my heart.
I layed in bed with the street light casting soft light into my room and called my dad. He knew the second he answered the phone that I was scared, for the first time genuinely scared. Tears ran down my face as he told me that the best things in life are sometimes the hardest. He told me that it’s okay to feel how I’m feeling and that I would regret it forever if I wasn’t here right now. He also told me that he’s proud of me and that I can accomplish anything that my heart desires.
It’s moments like these that define who you are. It isn’t the absence of fear or doubt on the path to our dreams that makes things happen. It’s acknowledging these things but continuing on your journey. I’m blessed to have people like this to help me along the way. At the end of the day, we are pursuing something. My advice to you is to listen to what your heart is telling you and trust it. If you do this, the magic will come.
